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Saturday, September 5, 2015

Got my second batch purchases frm Malaysia Clay Art Online X)

I was more than a very super happy kid getting my new purchase from Malaysia Clay Art Online , i bought the Master Pastel colour, then i got a box of Oyumaru reusable mold maker and some other polymer clays~


Firstly the trying out the Oyumaru mold maker,i actually just use a small glass cup and boiled some water. i cut small pieces of it n threw it inside the hot water.

So i gathered some miniatures tat i make a mold out of it~ u can choose any household stuff like toothpaste cap for the cupcake paper cup, something wif smooth n geometrical items u can easily make a mold out of it.
Below are some of the simple miniatures i would love to duplicate~



(so it came out pretty well~ )

Just one reminder tat at first it will be difficult to handle, the mold maker might harden easily if u r having air-conditioner. 
Another thing is, the mold maker not only need to cover the surface of the item tat u wan to mold it, u need to have an adequate thickness so tat it has enough strength for u to push out the polymer clay without distorting the design.
*Corn flour helps demolding too (*≧▽≦*)

Lastly, i try assembling them together~ n i made tis wonderful cute miniatures <3 nbsp="">

If u can notice, this time i add a little more shades with the Master pastel colour i bought, it was quite easy to apply n very pigmented, im glad it turns out great, although im still not very good at it, i shall practice more to improving on the colour shading~!

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a tiny charm update
Gloomy bear charm #handphonestrap #handphoneaccessories
(shall update an tutorial if any r interested

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Thursday, August 27, 2015

Polymer Clay crafting for the 1st time!!! X)

So i have been wanting to craft something out of polymer clay for a long time, so the starting of my sem break i decided to buy some to try it out, but i was looking for clay that is not too pricey(as im a student), n i actually did saw the Malaysia Clay Art online shop on Facebook long time ago n eagerly wants to try it out as it was to me affordable as a student wif my tiny bit of penny X)
I bought some basic colours, n at first i was so paranoid i used so many plastic wraps to prevent it from drying out which was really tiring
But to my notice, some of the small piece of clay tat i left outside the plastic wrap didnt dry out as i thought it would(as many sites says some well known brand do dry out or crumble), i add a very little amount of water n tadaaa! it was all nice n soft again~~ <3





On the other hand, for colouring it works terrific wif my leftover acrylic paints~ sadly a few of them dried out like my blue...which is my favourite, i guess i will just hv to buy blue clay or another set of acrylic paint T^T(my wallet~~)
I'm planning on using pastel colour soon when i get to buy it~





then comes another challenge is tat i always get fingerprints on my clay when im shaping, luckily i looked up the net it says put on some Corn flour on ur hand it should solve the problem!









Then comes the hard part, baking, although the website has stated clearly about the temperature but im nt quite familiar wif my own oven, ends up...burning a few of my crafts TT but it was alright~it was worth the try as i did a few more time i kinda understand how it works!

*So i recommend like seriously do a tiny experiment b4 u burn ur hardwork !

Last but not least~ i still had lots of fun in my polymer clay crafting~ <3 








I shall hv more crafts in future!
For now, Happy craftingg!





Friday, October 24, 2014

自闭症儿童

我在想。。最近是不是得了自闭症。。
不喜欢说话。。还是不知道说什么。。
忘了怎么说。。忘了怎么告诉
像是母鸡忘了生蛋,玫瑰忘了开花,咖啡也凉了

世界已经遗弃了我么。。我到底是谁。。要成为怎样的人。。活得像个活死人。。
只剩下呼吸。。还要再忘记什么。。

曾经爱过的不爱了
全部都不重要了。。不需要了。。

真的什么都不剩了么。。。

到底为什么还在呼吸。。

Friday, August 29, 2014

all my worries

i tell myself~ dear child~dun u worry~~~
everything's gonna be just fine~~
i noe it happened last time...i noe it was so tough... i noe it is very heartbreaking..i noe it is hard to overcome~
dear child dun u worry~
i love u
it is alright to be fear for a lil while~
but dun make it last, wake up
ignite
u noe these fears, pain and worries r nt gonna stay... u dun wanna befren them
u will stand
dun u worry
it is u
u r controlling wat is inside
do not be afraid my child
u r so strong, u stand tall
u hv the power to fight against the watsoever
u r the warrior! u fight wif bravery
u come bring back ur pride!

Thursday, August 28, 2014

hmm..

感觉就是有点低落。。。今早接到不好的消息。。。就搞得心情很不愉快。。
又快要开学了。。。真的很伤心。。。
整个早晨。。心事重重。。。
直至现在,天气依然没有改变。。。我曾经非常喜好这样的阴天。。很舒服。。。可是没有转换。。。导致我一直持续想着。。同样的心情。。。哎
我好希望一切能够好转。。不过我想。。我最应该转换的是我的心情。。。我该如何走出这情绪低落。。。我的天空。。。几时才可以转晴。。

Monday, June 9, 2014

finally renewed my license to full~~ urhh

(view from lrt taman jaya)the jpj is at the most right~ need to wait a long queue bt once payment has been made,although he says 10minutes,it took like  2minutes for my new license to be "baked" XP

Sunday, May 18, 2014

哎。。衰

今天刮花了一个可怕aunty的车。。。只是讲一声sry竟然马上吗sry no use wat has been done has been done!
zzz又不是不赔你=。=""衰到 大骂什么 又不是超级伤,没有要你一块肉,好好跟你说就好了咯,最后一定是没想到我这么快联络mechanic来谈=。= 大家都是怕麻烦的人。。。干嘛非得打电话给全世界了都没有找到一个有帮到你车子的人=。=|||做人eq iq都得高。。。囧 希望这件事早日告一段落。。。。哎 一年发生三次车"祸"
我是不是嫁个司机干脆=o=

Saturday, January 4, 2014

I hate to leave home

it's time again
for me to leave my warm home
I always tell myself to suppress my own feelings bt it's just so hard!...

my thoughts brought from 2013 to 2014 tat haunts me

ppl hv been writing new yr resolutions~~n stuff n stuff
well to me I just wanna be a simpler person
think lesser towards negative think more towards positive
dun talk unless it's for gdness
be happy
I think tat sums up

bt today the main thing I blog...is to let go of a tot in my mind...
well I hv tis 2 frens of mine,which were roommates
they were once the best roommates ever
n suddenly,everything got the other way round, they had fought countless times n they insult n atk each other wif words tat r...hmm...I just hope those wouldn't come out frm my mouth.
Move on, tis girl, let's call it A, said to B girl tat guys talk bad about B among themselves, n A tells her tat it's for her own gd , B puzzled I guess taking her few days after to tell me after she had make things clear.

starting over frm the beginning if the story,
one day,I got a text frm A girl sent at 2am+ n wat I saw in the text the next morning was about she telling something to B about some guys backstabbing B n B cried n sat alone the whole night, additional, calling me to comfort her as well.

so as usual I went to class sitting..n waiting for things to happen...bt weird tat...B told me ntg n was normal as ever

n few days later she told me the whole story wat I wrote previously, n B actually went n ask the guys frankly....weird thing is the guys denied n was shocked n said ntg like tis happened...im truly curious nw... who is telling the truth?

anyway B shifted room to end tis nightmare...

it's creepy when I really dunno who to trust... n thr r still lies told by A I noe bt she was quite a nice fren b4....nw Im the 1 who is really puzzled

bt anyway, y mind about ppl? additional new yr resolution? MIND UR OWN BUSINESS

Sunday, November 24, 2013

哎。。。每一次又每一次

我真的真的很很很非常地非常地痛苦和纠结。。。就是当我离开家的时候
家,不只是个建筑,容得下人,三餐温饱,还有最重要的每每一个成员
离开,就是离开他们
那种不舍
那种难分
从前如此依赖家的我,努力地抑制自己。。。让自己的想念减成最低。。。可是好痛苦。。。我没想过会那么辛苦。。。我真的很想告诉那些现在不珍惜家人在身旁的人,记得珍惜。。。因为不知道几时,我们再长的宴会也会散。。。。
只有眼泪知道那种痛。。。。

Thursday, July 4, 2013

life is difficult, it isnt bad, it is just ur own perspective

天可以很美。。。美得很灿烂。。。美得你无法看见周围的黑暗~全世界的爱可以给你拥有。。而你不懂得珍惜过。。。
我啊~想了一想,我是不是用了我过去18年的岁月,拥有了我一辈子的福气,爱,还有运气
因为我现在。。。一切都失去了。。。站在一个没有人的舞台~你的观众是你的敌人~你演得越糟~他们的笑容越大~越开怀~
我面临了我人生最不开心的日子。。。家不再是家,朋友各有各的生活,我的前途很迷茫。。。很模糊。。。可是,这要是无法让我死去。。我只能一直走下去~
从前,我这么说,生活~要是太简单,那就太无趣了~
我是有多么无知,我一直认为,我周围有很多温室里的小花,不过我自己,又不成只是堆杂草~
杂草该被除掉,这是理所当然,可是杂草也有杂草的态度
就算是被世界认可,被公认为废物,为认为会剥夺其它周围小花的养分的。。。我还是希望可以活得好看些,为以后死时,有个美丽的葬身之地~
杂草可以被踩,小花却被人注意而避开~我们叫痛,那又如何~

我从小就感觉自己一无是处,人家若从零,我得从负数,然而我努力,我努力地攀上去,我稍微看见小花们是怎么活的~他们被细心照料,被呵护,被爱。。。那很美好。。。好好。。。好好。。。当我稍微捡了些多余的肥料,就觉得自己好幸福好幸福。。。只是好景不长。。很快的。。幸福像烟火的~绽放了最美的花火后。。。自己就燃尽了~只剩一堆尘~

可恨的是。。。我还活着。。。人生没因为这样而放过我。。它还要更多。。。它还要我更痛。。可每一次的伤痛。。。我越坚强。。。我不会被你击倒。。。我不会。。

Tuesday, July 2, 2013

haizz.....

sometimes...especially tis kind of time....I will always wonder.....is thr god....god r u really watching over me....although I noe he is always thr..especially when im hving the toughest times.....bt tis time again....I just cant stop myself...it's so hard......I worked so hard.....n wat I end up getting....was.......depressing..... hw m I going to move on....wat m I suppose to do nw.......my result is really upsetting me.....n I really dunno wat to do next....m I able to proceed to my degree? I hate it when im unsure bout my life.....I really hate it....god....I really beg u..........I need ur strength...I need some luck too.....pls....show me tat path......I cant c it anymore..............

Wednesday, June 26, 2013

i wan,i can,i must do it...!

these days i havent been really 'real',if tat makes sense...im losing my mind.....losing hope....losing my feelings.......i need to get them back.....i wan tat feeling of love...by touch by words...by gestures.....i cant feel by nw...bt soon i will find back my senses....life is nt owning me!i own my own life! i wan to be real,im waking up....getting on the right path again...lord,lead me nt to get lost again..amen

Friday, May 24, 2013

无法专注的我。。

大考了,一直一直觉得可以十拿九稳,可是内心一直很不安。。。一直不停地刷 homepage...不行。。。我决定封锁自己。。。我希望那执着的自己。。。我不想认输,只好大战一场,至少没有遗憾,我连续几天什么都不开,只看youtube insta,我不能堕落,至少不是现在。。。至少给我死无遗憾,况且,我还想走下去,赐我力量吧主,拜托
请保佑我身边每个人,我不知道发生什么事了,不知道外面的世界,等考完试,我还想好好地看一看你造的世界

Tuesday, April 16, 2013

糟糟的感觉

唉每一次的过错,每一次的反省,即可成长很多,我却觉得很痛苦。。。为什么。。老是问自己为什么。。。。每一次都在进步,可是依然还是会有犯错的地方。。我真的很厌倦成长这样东西。。。一直需要不停的改变。。。一直这样。。。觉得变得越来越不自己。。。

Sunday, April 14, 2013

我很幸福,我知道,我一直都知道

回家真好,无论什么事都有家人在,不怕别人怎么说,没有误会没有负担,家会包容你的一切和一切。。。不像在宿舍要每天努力地讨好任何人,要怎么应酬他人。。。真的是非常非常不容易。。今天又要离开家,很是不舍。。。我真的会很想很想家。。。

Monday, April 1, 2013

睡饱心情自然好!

最近心情超暴躁,又郁闷,做什么都有气无力的,天气的干燥,使我睡觉都不能好好睡~心情根本糟透了~最近终于下雨了~今天睡得超爽超爽!希望日后也能这样X目

真的好久没有好好睡一觉了~~

Sunday, March 10, 2013

well~hv been quite bored tis 2 days~hmm~dunno whether i should think more bout my future....
i always noe tat i must nt stress up myself~nt to compare wif anyone,bt......thr's always 1 particular person, tat pressure me, nt to say pressure...hmm~motivate me,to do something beyond wat i m doing nw, to look further, to grow more, to stay even hungrIER~if tat makes sense~
i dun noe her quite well, bt i added her on fb~she's just a parishioner of mine~used to c her quite a lot, n yea, her ex was the 1 guy i admire a lot, bt tat's nt the point, aside of her prince charming, it was her life updates on fb motivates me, she is just the same age as me, much prettier n sweeter~loads of fren here n thr~wonder hw she manage to be so close wif each n every fren of hers~she travels a lot, by herself n her frens along~taking photographs of places tat r milesss away frm me~~thr was no fear in her in my view, she is the star, jumping here n thr, nt gonna stop at any moment, she's gonna go further, n nvr forget to shine.
i hope tat my life will change, though i m nw stuck in my uni, i dun think i will be escaping frm here for 5 more yrs, bt i m nt afraid, it might be late, bt it will nt be nvr, one day, i m gonna go around the world, hving my own tour~wif frens of mine, who will thr be willingly bringing me all around, though nw i do nt hv much frens around the world~nt really~i will hv to find ways to work tat out.....
i just wan to go further~beyond everything i m hving nw~i wan more!(i will always rmb to be grateful n be satisfied for god's sake) bt i dun wan to waste my life, my life time is nt tat long for me to waste, just once, i wan to sparkle, might nt be a shining star, bt a short luminating dust, i m done,i m hunger for ntg by then, i hope

Sunday, February 24, 2013

feeling the stress

urhhh..time to be back to school,actually is nt all about school only..bt my hostel,my xxx roommate tat is making me so frustrated...zzz
she is so inconsiderate,nt knowing she herself is causing trouble to another,her attitude.....makes,me wanna faint

other than tat~I'm just a lil bit too stressed bout my final result.im just afraid...or maybe i cared too much...i took it quite panicked for the first time....wat can i do nw...wait for my result? i just hope it will nt fail me...haizz...nvr been like this b4 for the past...not this serious....i hv a thousand reasons y i dun wanna go back to school...seriously.. 

Thursday, February 14, 2013

太遥远的梦想, 太遥不可及的未来

懂得说别人,不懂得管好自己,我以为。。。我一直以为我不会是那样的人,只是,人啊,最可怕的东西,就是从小看着大人,心里静静想着我一定不会那样,却在未来,逐渐逐渐变成那可恶堕落人类。。。。

人真的真的需要一个短期内能达成的梦想,不然会逐渐迷茫,会逐渐失去,逐渐像个活死人。。。我不要。。。我不希望,我需要的是个目标,我有大的目标,有小的目标,我将会一一实现他们,我会努力,制造更多前进的方向,制造更多的机会,我不想堕落,我不依,我愿意被情绪控制。。。。我得醒过来。。。。

我老是告诉身边的朋友,我没事,我很坚强,不错,只不过,每个人都会有低潮的时候。。。这种时候不适合跟任何人说话。。。。最适合对自己说。。。想想,还真的,好久没跟自己好好聊天。。好好安慰下自己。。。多久以来努力的自己,多谢了,辛苦了,更爱你了~

今天啊。。。精神非常不佳,倒是没什么,只是昨晚4点多才入眠,却习惯早醒,导致自己非常疲倦,然而妈妈姐姐也是。。。一点点小事就发脾气起来。。而我。。。静静。。静静。。我不做声,我不说自己累了,只说我好久没有静静听别人训话,听人家骂我的声音,我老是以牙还牙。。。老是不听话地反咬回去,他来一句我顶十句。。。。脾气越来越暴躁,自己也不是没发现,只是任由自己去发泄,觉得以往受够了。。
看来我也只有那么一点可笑的能耐。。。。

我要醒过来,噩梦什么的无法击倒我,我低潮我堕落,但是我不屈服,我不想认输。。。
我会努力想起来,懂得爱别人的那种感觉,那种珍惜身边每个人的我,是最幸福的我,虽然有时会不顺利,有时候别拖累,可是还是很幸福地窝在一块,那种幸福的亲情友情~
我要挽留,我要再爱。
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