hmm..

感觉就是有点低落。。。今早接到不好的消息。。。就搞得心情很不愉快。。
又快要开学了。。。真的很伤心。。。
整个早晨。。心事重重。。。
直至现在，天气依然没有改变。。。我曾经非常喜好这样的阴天。。很舒服。。。可是没有转换。。。导致我一直持续想着。。同样的心情。。。哎
我好希望一切能够好转。。不过我想。。我最应该转换的是我的心情。。。我该如何走出这情绪低落。。。我的天空。。。几时才可以转晴。。

finally renewed my license to full~~ urhh

(view from lrt taman jaya)the jpj is at the most right~ need to wait a long queue bt once payment has been made,although he says 10minutes,it took like  2minutes for my new license to be "baked" XP

哎。。衰

今天刮花了一个可怕aunty的车。。。只是讲一声sry竟然马上吗sry no use wat has been done has been done!
zzz又不是不赔你=。=""衰到 大骂什么 又不是超级伤，没有要你一块肉，好好跟你说就好了咯，最后一定是没想到我这么快联络mechanic来谈=。= 大家都是怕麻烦的人。。。干嘛非得打电话给全世界了都没有找到一个有帮到你车子的人=。=|||做人eq iq都得高。。。囧 希望这件事早日告一段落。。。。哎 一年发生三次车"祸"
我是不是嫁个司机干脆=o=

I hate to leave home

it's time again
for me to leave my warm home
I always tell myself to suppress my own feelings bt it's just so hard!...

my thoughts brought from 2013 to 2014 tat haunts me

ppl hv been writing new yr resolutions~~n stuff n stuff
well to me I just wanna be a simpler person
think lesser towards negative think more towards positive
dun talk unless it's for gdness
be happy
I think tat sums up

bt today the main thing I blog...is to let go of a tot in my mind...
well I hv tis 2 frens of mine,which were roommates
they were once the best roommates ever
n suddenly,everything got the other way round, they had fought countless times n they insult n atk each other wif words tat r...hmm...I just hope those wouldn't come out frm my mouth.
Move on, tis girl, let's call it A, said to B girl tat guys talk bad about B among themselves, n A tells her tat it's for her own gd , B puzzled I guess taking her few days after to tell me after she had make things clear.

starting over frm the beginning if the story,
one day,I got a text frm A girl sent at 2am+ n wat I saw in the text the next morning was about she telling something to B about some guys backstabbing B n B cried n sat alone the whole night, additional, calling me to comfort her as well.

so as usual I went to class sitting..n waiting for things to happen...bt weird tat...B told me ntg n was normal as ever

n few days later she told me the whole story wat I wrote previously, n B actually went n ask the guys frankly....weird thing is the guys denied n was shocked n said ntg like tis happened...im truly curious nw... who is telling the truth?

anyway B shifted room to end tis nightmare...

it's creepy when I really dunno who to trust... n thr r still lies told by A I noe bt she was quite a nice fren b4....nw Im the 1 who is really puzzled

bt anyway, y mind about ppl? additional new yr resolution? MIND UR OWN BUSINESS

哎。。。每一次又每一次

我真的真的很很很非常地非常地痛苦和纠结。。。就是当我离开家的时候
家，不只是个建筑，容得下人，三餐温饱，还有最重要的每每一个成员
离开，就是离开他们
那种不舍
那种难分
从前如此依赖家的我，努力地抑制自己。。。让自己的想念减成最低。。。可是好痛苦。。。我没想过会那么辛苦。。。我真的很想告诉那些现在不珍惜家人在身旁的人，记得珍惜。。。因为不知道几时，我们再长的宴会也会散。。。。
只有眼泪知道那种痛。。。。

life is difficult, it isnt bad, it is just ur own perspective

天可以很美。。。美得很灿烂。。。美得你无法看见周围的黑暗~全世界的爱可以给你拥有。。而你不懂得珍惜过。。。
我啊~想了一想，我是不是用了我过去18年的岁月，拥有了我一辈子的福气，爱，还有运气
因为我现在。。。一切都失去了。。。站在一个没有人的舞台~你的观众是你的敌人~你演得越糟~他们的笑容越大~越开怀~
我面临了我人生最不开心的日子。。。家不再是家，朋友各有各的生活，我的前途很迷茫。。。很模糊。。。可是，这要是无法让我死去。。我只能一直走下去~
从前，我这么说，生活~要是太简单，那就太无趣了~
我是有多么无知，我一直认为，我周围有很多温室里的小花，不过我自己，又不成只是堆杂草~
杂草该被除掉，这是理所当然，可是杂草也有杂草的态度
就算是被世界认可，被公认为废物，为认为会剥夺其它周围小花的养分的。。。我还是希望可以活得好看些，为以后死时，有个美丽的葬身之地~
杂草可以被踩，小花却被人注意而避开~我们叫痛，那又如何~

我从小就感觉自己一无是处，人家若从零，我得从负数，然而我努力，我努力地攀上去，我稍微看见小花们是怎么活的~他们被细心照料，被呵护，被爱。。。那很美好。。。好好。。。好好。。。当我稍微捡了些多余的肥料，就觉得自己好幸福好幸福。。。只是好景不长。。很快的。。幸福像烟火的~绽放了最美的花火后。。。自己就燃尽了~只剩一堆尘~

可恨的是。。。我还活着。。。人生没因为这样而放过我。。它还要更多。。。它还要我更痛。。可每一次的伤痛。。。我越坚强。。。我不会被你击倒。。。我不会。。