it's nearly a new yr

coming to the end of tis yr,surprisingly...nt much feelings~just some words to express~

tis yr hv been weird, full of challenges,as usual, memorable n some un-memorable ones~joy, sad , love, true love, fake loves, etc etc~~

nw i m accelerating slowly, nt tat i dun wanna be gd, or be better asap~it's just tat...everything hv to slow down....

my life hv been missing tis n tat, n it is just becoz i m chasing one another's path, which~i shouldnt~

as i m forgetting who m i...many told me tat we shouldnt mind the past, bt no, nt...exactly....coz,the past is wat i was, once, me, it is the reason of who m i, wat i m nw...without the past there will be no me...no me, no present, no future...

i nw think tat, wat it matters is, take the past as a lesson, a really long 1...>.<

take the present,as wat my fren told me...a gift, tat's y it is called..."present",

n, look forward, to the future~

我喜欢用旁白的心情，去说我自己的故事~俗语说旁观者清嘛X) 在小女孩生活的路上啊~路不直，从来都不顺，一直一直这样地走，慢慢地走~真的~很容易迷失方向~因为路很崎岖，弯弯曲曲的。。。 当自己选择走正走直，往往会迷失，因为小女孩已经走偏了。。。。越走越前。。。发现自己走错了路，看了看地图，走回正路时，发现耗了好多的时间很多的精力，却还是那么不及人家。。。到底是为什么呢。。。。于是硬硬地走时，一次次地试探使小女孩害怕，更加的小心，她开始把鞋子穿上，她开始戴着一些隐藏自我的，不会有人知道小女孩以往的笨拙，以往做的傻事，小女孩沾沾自喜。。。继续~又弯又曲~小女孩还是努力往上~她不服。。。。她变得更加坚强。。。更加警惕。。更聪明。。。想说。。。与其一直走错路，自己再造自己的路不就好了嘛。。。 于是小女孩踏上了新的路程，她不但离目的地更远，也越来越迷茫。。。她不知道自己原本的目的是哪里。。也不知道自己再走下去的路会如何。。。她坐了下来，歇了歇，他知道他的路还没走完，小女孩还没找到自己的路，也不知道要去哪儿，可是她会坚强，总有一天，她会知道的。。。。大概吧。。。

在此还想说~ 我啊~也不知道为啥~老是要戴着面具生活~我觉得好可悲~我活着都不安心~老是老是~在这个人面前假装~不然就是不能把一切说清楚~在另一个人面前~我又要隐藏这个那个。。。。。。。慢慢慢慢。。。我才发现，问题除了是我。。。还是我四周围的演员们。。。他们卖力的演出~我这个好观众，为了回馈他们的辛苦~也尽全力地给他们作反应~导致最后变得我不像我~搞得我也得上台演出~我演的是小丑~我跌倒是其他观众的笑柄~我的拿手绝活是他人的嫉妒~他们希望我永远都跌在地上别爬起来了~可惜啊~我还得继续演~跟着跟着~我也成了可笑的演员~

想说。。。我不想再表演了~团长啊~我累了~可笑的小丑该找人代演了~我不干了，我想做我自己~面具还你，假情假意。。。我再也不要了。。。

12.12.12
it's the lovey dovey day~n yea.....i wish every single of my baby will be so loving as always~ love them so much~i m so far~bt my love goes beyond <3 font="font">
hope everyone is hving a really gd day~ X) well i didnt had mine~still~ <3 font="font" nbsp="nbsp">

ur b'day, y should i care?bt i do.......

u will nvr find out, i still cares......

it's been a month or 2............i cant forget the thought of u might still come back to me n say u love me........

i noe in the inside, u dun....

bt i always let myself dream, i hope u do rmb me, maybe u dun.....bt i m so tiny....so so tiny tat u can just forget in a blink of ur eyes

it's so easy for me to let of any ex of my life bt i cant even forget a person who is only a passerby, who flirted n went off..............i m dumb, i guess so~bt it's true

/.\ i wish u happy b;day dear....for the last time letting me call u dear n i will promise myself to move on...

i will love u, wif -ed here. <3 nbsp="nbsp">

first time sharing X)

i decided to create a place, for me myself, to allow another's to noe wat i hv been up to~
it's been 3 months since i really left my city, i still come back....bt....it's diff...
a complete diff place to stay had change my world, my thoughts, my friends, my way of living, the feeling to be home were rather diff....
i had always tot i wanted to leave home.....
bt no, i love it....so much, tat i miss it almost everyday in hostel
living in campus , in a hostel
extra tolerance n masks r needed.....
sometimes u will hv to understand tat u r unique, ppl cant live the way u live, so each n everyone must accept one another's differences to hv a peaceful life
i hv been so tired of hving double n triple faces every single day in my life.....when i decided to live on my own....some ppl will be stabbing at ur back.....wat on earth is wif tis place? i dun noe.......bt since i might just live thr for 6 yrs, i will hv to take the biggest risk, to be------myself
i will do watever i m comfortable wif, i will try to be direct n unhurtful, i will try anything for another's happiness bt nt to forget my own's


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i specially made tis blog alive is becoz i dun wan dars to be worried bout me n i wan them to keep up to date wat i m facing thru <3 do="do" i="i" love="love" p="p" really="really" them="them">