自闭症儿童

我在想。。最近是不是得了自闭症。。
不喜欢说话。。还是不知道说什么。。
忘了怎么说。。忘了怎么告诉
像是母鸡忘了生蛋，玫瑰忘了开花，咖啡也凉了

世界已经遗弃了我么。。我到底是谁。。要成为怎样的人。。活得像个活死人。。
只剩下呼吸。。还要再忘记什么。。

曾经爱过的不爱了
全部都不重要了。。不需要了。。

真的什么都不剩了么。。。

到底为什么还在呼吸。。

all my worries

i tell myself~ dear child~dun u worry~~~
everything's gonna be just fine~~
i noe it happened last time...i noe it was so tough... i noe it is very heartbreaking..i noe it is hard to overcome~
dear child dun u worry~
i love u
it is alright to be fear for a lil while~
but dun make it last, wake up
ignite
u noe these fears, pain and worries r nt gonna stay... u dun wanna befren them
u will stand
dun u worry
it is u
u r controlling wat is inside
do not be afraid my child
u r so strong, u stand tall
u hv the power to fight against the watsoever
u r the warrior! u fight wif bravery
u come bring back ur pride!

hmm..

感觉就是有点低落。。。今早接到不好的消息。。。就搞得心情很不愉快。。
又快要开学了。。。真的很伤心。。。
整个早晨。。心事重重。。。
直至现在，天气依然没有改变。。。我曾经非常喜好这样的阴天。。很舒服。。。可是没有转换。。。导致我一直持续想着。。同样的心情。。。哎
我好希望一切能够好转。。不过我想。。我最应该转换的是我的心情。。。我该如何走出这情绪低落。。。我的天空。。。几时才可以转晴。。

finally renewed my license to full~~ urhh

(view from lrt taman jaya)the jpj is at the most right~ need to wait a long queue bt once payment has been made,although he says 10minutes,it took like  2minutes for my new license to be "baked" XP

哎。。衰

今天刮花了一个可怕aunty的车。。。只是讲一声sry竟然马上吗sry no use wat has been done has been done!
zzz又不是不赔你=。=""衰到 大骂什么 又不是超级伤，没有要你一块肉，好好跟你说就好了咯，最后一定是没想到我这么快联络mechanic来谈=。= 大家都是怕麻烦的人。。。干嘛非得打电话给全世界了都没有找到一个有帮到你车子的人=。=|||做人eq iq都得高。。。囧 希望这件事早日告一段落。。。。哎 一年发生三次车"祸"
我是不是嫁个司机干脆=o=

I hate to leave home

it's time again
for me to leave my warm home
I always tell myself to suppress my own feelings bt it's just so hard!...

my thoughts brought from 2013 to 2014 tat haunts me

ppl hv been writing new yr resolutions~~n stuff n stuff
well to me I just wanna be a simpler person
think lesser towards negative think more towards positive
dun talk unless it's for gdness
be happy
I think tat sums up

bt today the main thing I blog...is to let go of a tot in my mind...
well I hv tis 2 frens of mine,which were roommates
they were once the best roommates ever
n suddenly,everything got the other way round, they had fought countless times n they insult n atk each other wif words tat r...hmm...I just hope those wouldn't come out frm my mouth.
Move on, tis girl, let's call it A, said to B girl tat guys talk bad about B among themselves, n A tells her tat it's for her own gd , B puzzled I guess taking her few days after to tell me after she had make things clear.

starting over frm the beginning if the story,
one day,I got a text frm A girl sent at 2am+ n wat I saw in the text the next morning was about she telling something to B about some guys backstabbing B n B cried n sat alone the whole night, additional, calling me to comfort her as well.

so as usual I went to class sitting..n waiting for things to happen...bt weird tat...B told me ntg n was normal as ever

n few days later she told me the whole story wat I wrote previously, n B actually went n ask the guys frankly....weird thing is the guys denied n was shocked n said ntg like tis happened...im truly curious nw... who is telling the truth?

anyway B shifted room to end tis nightmare...

it's creepy when I really dunno who to trust... n thr r still lies told by A I noe bt she was quite a nice fren b4....nw Im the 1 who is really puzzled

bt anyway, y mind about ppl? additional new yr resolution? MIND UR OWN BUSINESS